06 May Just Let Me Love You
This silent prayer was a surprise. We had just finished Vespers, the sixth time of prayer that day, and frankly I was tired and anxious to get back to my laptop waiting for me in my room.
Towards this end I propose, at the very least for myself, and maybe it could be helpful to others, to routinely ask the question, “How is God loving me?” using Chapman’s 5 love languages as a sort of checklist or meditation guide. I would suggest that in any given week, or on any specific day, or at any particular moment God is loving us in so many ways and it is our work to develop the sensitivity to this love and to fully embrace it. To illustrate this point I will use this method to review just a small portion of one of my days at Mucknell Abbey just to have peak at how God has been loving me.
•The scripture readings which told me I am beloved
•The encouraging words from the brothers and sisters
•The food I ate but did not cook, or grow, or harvest
•The many cups of tea offered and poured with care
•The body and blood at Eucharist today
•The wooden cross made for me in the workshop
•The silences in which God embraced me
•The prayer and worship which uplifted my spirit
•The feeling of firm wet earth underneath my boot
•The smell of rain, the tickle of wind
God’s love is a certainty and yet when we truly start to look for this love, it is always a surprise.
Demarius J. Walker is a resident member of the Community of St Anselm. He spent a month living alongside the Mucknell Community in April-May 2018.
He blogs at https://soundofthegenuine.wordpress.com